A falling star

As I stopped counting the days, I was told that the Maggie B sailed out of Lunenburg harbor a year ago today. I haven’t written into my blog in months as I preferred to think instead. Seeking the permanent in the eternally changing environment, inner growth and the aspiration for a better understanding of the world describes this last year for me. So many things have changed on the surface, we’ve visited so many lands and crossed paths with beautiful people everywhere but even with this constant change, all had remained the same. The only change seems to be growth.

Yesterday we had the last show of Dream Macons, this wonderful and creative play that Hannah and I played in at the Salamanca Art Center in Hobart. Something special happened during the last minutes of the play. I believe to be the only one having seen it but it does not seem to be a coincidence, neither the fruit of my imagination. I was waiting for my last queue to come out onto the balcony, my face painted white, I stood in a darkened corner of a room on the third floor of the building looking out into the vast sky above the trees blown in the wind, concentrating on a star. In those moments I find it so hard to separate myself from everything around me as I feel that I am melting in. Acting in a play requires coming back to my personality in this life and being in my character as an actor. As I was gathering my forces to act and come back to this reality, a star fell out of the sky, at the exact place I was looking at.

I think I caught it and it is still with me, hidden in my pocket. I don’t know what I will do with it yet but I feel its presence. Soon after I lost my watch. Something has started over a year ago and there is no way of going back. I don’t know if this will be my last entry into this blog or not. I am planning to sail to New Zealand with the Maggie B and then return home and keep on moving forward, wherever I need to go. Maybe, with a later perspective, I will be able to tell you about these experiences. This year has been amazing and intense, I’ll try to write a book about it but I need to be away from the boat. The feelings need to be turned into understanding.